June 12, 2017


Dear Lulu
Your dad and I had to make a tremendously difficult decision as to who would care for you when we couldn’t.  If I had my way, you would continue to be with me every minute of every day. We would continue to explore the city, read books, play, and take as many classes as we could!  Spending the first three months of your life with you were the best days of my life. I had no idea I could love someone so much! You are my world. And that won’t change, just because we can’t be together all the time.

Your dad and I explored nanny’s and multiple daycares and I thought long and hard about how I could work and watch you at the same time. I continue to think about this, and truthfully, there will probably be more days then there should, where I will do exactly that.  Lulu, you are my sun, my moon and all the stars. Eventually, we had to come to a decision and we decided daycare was the best option. If we had a nanny and the three of us were home together, I wouldn’t want the nanny to watch you, I would want to spend every second with you.  There are daycares out there that are amazing. And I think we found one of those daycares. As you get older you will have so many options available to you, to set you up with the best experiences. Baby yoga, music classes, organic meals, and socialization. The teachers who watch over you are kind, caring, and have more education in childcare then I could ever dream.  I know you’re in a safe and happy place, and even though it makes me sad, we will all be ok.

I work to give you more.  More love, more of the good times, and less of the frantic times.  I want to show you that you can be anything, and I do mean anything.  I want you to find things you’re passionate about and love. I want you to know that you really can make a career out of doing something you love.  I want to you to be your own person, with friends, and likes and dislikes. I want to expose you to anything and everything out there. But none of those things made watching you go out the door with daddy, to go to school all day, without me, easy.  It’s hard to leave you. It’s hard to know you’re with someone else. It’s hard to know someone else will get your snuggles, and dry your eyes. Will feed you bottles and put you to sleep. But we will make our time together so much better now because it has limits, and we will still do all those activities together too.  Our nights and weekends will be filled with fun and love and adventure. We will all get through this, and we will all find joy in this and in the end, we really will all be ok.
Lots of Love,
Mama

Friends – Help!  How did you handle your baby’s first day of daycare?  Were you scared?  Excited?  Nervous?  I’m a wreck! I don’t know how I’m going to do this every day.  Does it get easier?

~Sarah~